I have stared at this screen for over 2 hours, I just can't seem to get out of this funk! I am at a loss here folks how does the world of SAHM's keep from going loony? Facebook has lost it's excitement, my email inbox has lost it's luster, and my iPhone is beginning to turn brown from lack of use :(
I need some inspiration, enlightenment, maybe some excitement I am not sure what I need but a saying my sister used to say is beginning to feel true:
"My name is un-important, I have no friends, and my favorite color is clear"
this is not me! How did I get here? Where did the spontaneous girl who jumps in the car on a Friday and shows up in Northern California unannounced go? I used to come up with the wackiest ideas for meals, family outings, even just a girls night out. Lately I am lucky to find inspiration to not make "mac-n-cheese" for dinner.
My poor husband and family are getting the shortest end of that stick! I mean how many days in a row can you eat a ham and cheese omelet? Wait don't answer that! So here I sit looking for inspiration. I have food network going on the TV, eHow going on one screen, and the Oriental Trading Company catalog in front of me. Please.... something pop off the page and light my fire! I can not subject my family to anymore of the un-exciting HMIC! I think they might soon go on strike.
I had a SAHM moment yesterday where I realized I was doing EVERYTHING I did for someone else, nothing just for myself. In answer to your questions "what happened, where did 'me' go?" the answer is simple. School, practice, therapy, routine, and other peoples' needs/demands. The solution I found for myself may (or may not) help you. I work 1 night a week doing something that I LOVE to do... I twist balloons at Applebees. I could do it more often, I could make a ton of money doing it if I wanted to, but I don't. It's my "this is me" time to not chase children, clean messes, check homework, and do all the things that fill the days and weeks as HMIC. I take that little bit of time to reset, and it gives daddy a chance to connect with the kids without overprotective mamma around, too.
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