Learning to pick my battles...

This past week has been a rough one on me. It seemed like every time I turned around I was getting kicked, bitten, squished, tackled, stepped on, scowled at, woken up, hollered at, and man that was just Monday ;p I love my family dearly but this week was not one of those weeks.

I am learning that somethings are just better left alone (not really to fester and grow into a huge grudge where you want to scream at the top of your lungs so hard that your eyes feel like they are going to pop out of their sockets) than to try and deal with them when they happen. I am not sure why I continually put too much on my plate each day. I had NO idea that I would have MORE to do as the HMIC than I had working 2 full time jobs as the HBIC!

I am desperately trying to find a balance between the "silence" and loneliness found between the hours of 8am and 2pm. You know those caused by all the other members of the household that can carry on a real conversation are a work or school and all you are left with are the random babbalings of a two year old and the dogs. I have found it very hard to stay motivated this last week, causing a pile up in the evening of all the things that left untouched (mainly the dishes, laundry, and general house cleaning) and a frantic rush to accomplish as much as I can before my eyelids crash down on each other.

I am blessed to have a family that will try and help around the house. With my daughters it is like pulling a large ox in the opposite direction most times to get them to actually engage in the house work. My husband and brother in law are always willing to lend a hand, I just wish that I could learn to ASK for help BEFORE I am at my wits end. I feel like I am snapping at everyone, and in turn they snap back. This is a VICIOUS cycle that I am going to break and it is starting with me!

So here are the new goals for this week:
1) I am tackling only 1 major house project each day.
2) I will schedule time for me to go out of the house BY MY SELF and turn off my cell phone so I can truly be alone and left to my own devices.
3) I will ASK people to help me in advance or before I am feeling like the red eyed monster is ripping out of my skin.

There you have it, I have a plan! Lets see if I can make it work. I love my family, I don't want them to hate me because I can not keep this HMIC in check. Wish me luck!